you and i see different things when we look at me
I'm Kou

I am my own PLANET.
I seek my own approval over anyone else's.
Intimidation fails to move me.
Very few people matter to me, but for each of them I would give everything.
— So Reverie
open’s for this little band, they’re pretty underground. You’ve probably never heard of them. I think it’s called “The Dispute” if you’ve heard of them. Maybe it’s LA Dispute. I’m not super sure on the pronunciation. But they’re pretty cool I guess. Maybe La Disputé?
oh wait, you’ve heard of them, because they’re awesome.
La Dispute - King Park
This song literally gives me chills, especially the end. The lyrics are just so dark
(Source: classic-mtv)
But I still see him dead in the parking lot at the gas station just down the street. And I still hear my friend say: “You know, you wouldn’t believe the things I saw when I was stationed overseas” but he somehow keeps smiling in spite of all of that, while I keep finding ways to push the good out for the bad. Oh, how selfish of myself to always say that it was more than I could take, like it was pain I couldn’t shake. Like it could break me with its fingers, throw my body in the lake, and I would slowly sink away. But the truth is it was sorrow that I made and wouldn’t face. See, I keep falling for the future after tripping on the past and I am always tearing sutures out to make the anguish last like it defines me or reminds me: I’ve found comfort in my suffering and uncertainty in happiness and death, because what’s next is such a mystery to me. I am terrified of all the things I feel but cannot see.
