January 2011
Of course my new years plans are falling through.
So sick of everyone being shitty….. just one fucking legit person. Please.
A year ago today
I was on a bus for 16 hours pissed off that we were gonna be apart for new years and like a week after that.
I wonder
How many phone calls and texts I’m going to get saying happy new year. And how many will be from people I actually want to talk to.
maybe I SHOULD see a doctor
my heart area / side are still trying to kill me. maybe this is bad since it’s continued….
A breakdown of the coming of 2011.
justyvonne:
11:57 pm
11:58 pm
11:59 pm
12:00 am
12:01 am
December 2010
Now
I wonder how long it will be before we talk again…..
Funny how alcohol makes my fingers want to type your number….. weird. But I will fight it and leave you alone tonight unless you text me.
Am I taking my emotional cues from the scripts I...
Makes me question was is love or just lust, caked in blood or old rust…
I don’t know….
You are worth every second of this hell I put...
Trying to find something to do for new years
That doesn’t involve me being the one single person in a room of drunk couples is proving to be difficult.
The truth is the hardest thing to face
It was much easier to lie to myself….
I'm an anchor
I’m holding you back. I’m not going anywhere. I’m always just in the way.
Bad dreams again.
I thought I could stop them but I let these get to me. Ugh. I feel exhausted. I was up earlier waiting for a phone call I never got. :/
Jesus Christ. What I would give to not feel like...
I lied
Some days it's not so bad.
But when I’m having a rough day and the person who used to comfort me the most shows up and stands next to me for an hour…. that’s when I get upset. I miss you so much sometimes….
Of course
My tattoo design that I wanted isn’t gonna fit where I wanted it. And Idk where to get it or what to do to make it work. I swear I looked it over several times to make sure it was possible. Ugh. Fuck. And since I’m not an “artist” I apparently don’t understand. So glad I woke up early for this shit.
I'm 99% sure I'm the only person on Tumblr who...
not the only one. me either.
I really really don't want to be alone for new...
You have no idea what you're doing to me...
You’re tearing me apart…
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Reason #8 I miss you
The same conversations: “Hey what are you doing?” “Nothing, what’s up?” “Just hanging out, wanna come over?” “Of course, see you in a few” “:) I love you” “I love you too”
time
time is slowly whittling away at some of the things we had. Instead of periods of time I spent with you you, I basically only remember 2 things. I remember the really good times we had, and then I remember the last few weeks when you turned into someone that you are not. It’s almost as if 2 liquids are being poured on opposite sides of a funnel. they swirl around and fill this bottle. The...
I LOVE AMAZON
so I just tried going to sleep like an hour ago but I was looking online at stereos for my car. found a $400 one on amazon for $140 new. hello new stereo + FREE shipping.
I fucking love amazon.
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Reason #3 I miss you
whatever bed I slept in was 10 times more comfortable with you next to me.
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Reason #12 I miss you
I’d rub your back and on occasion you’d return the favor and do a great job. Tonight I need a back rub like no other….
fatty is apparently in a playful mood
she keeps wrestling with me and chewing on my hand. but I have to LEAVE
I'm confused....
maybe I’m just thinking too much….
sometimes
I think you couldn’t care if I was even breathing or not, as long as I’m hear to listen. but then there are nights like tonight when you get me a gift that you shouldn’t be buying for me. and I see that maybe you do care about me…. Do you care about me at all?
